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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Blog: Guided - Meeting Scott and Cody

Sometimes we are guided. When our friend David mentioned the lunar eclipse Monday evening we almost blew it off, having little faith it would be visible in San Francisco. But we felt something tugging at us to go to the beach and observe so we departed shortly before midnight…

Guided - Meeting Scott and Cody

We had a cool time when we went to the beach to see the lunar eclipse spanning Monday night and early Tuesday morning (Aug 24th 2007)...

We felt guided as we drove there, guided even in the intent to go there, it was a somewhat mystical drive getting there through the fog which took us over a big hill. We realized we probably would not get to see the eclipse as we were setting out, in spite of a popular rumor that the fog would clear away in time to see it… and indeed the sky remained too overcast to see anything beyond the clouds.

However, we met some lovely people who had also come to the beach for a chance to see the eclipse. There are fires nearly every night on the beach and three fires were burning when we finally arrived there.

We met some people at the head of one of the many sets of steps that go down through the tide wall that protects the city from erosion, particularly in heavy storms. One was named Cody, we lost the name of the other a nice fellow with pale blond hair who was playing music in his pocket just loud enough to share with anyone standing close by.

Cody had painted his face red with black markings above the left eye and below the right eye.

We shared our American Spirit tobacco with Cody and rolled one for ourselves as we'd been told we should have a full-moon smoke and eclipses are full-moon events. We took a couple or 3 puffs as we chatted with these two fellows. A bit of a commotion broke out down at the foot of the stairs where perhaps 4-5 more people were hanging out... One fellow marched off shouting and upset, he was headed off at an angle to the northwest toward a point where someone appeared to be lighting a new fire...

A bit later we said farewells and carried on along the wall to the stairs opposite the nearest fire.

At the first fire we met 4 girls, one was celebrating her Birthday. Was her name Angelica? Drat, we are just soooo bad with remembering names, we definitely wanted to remember her though…. One of the girls had fallen in the surf and was feeling too cold. The conversation here was quiet and mostly personal to their tiny group and we eventually moved on...

At the southern most fire we were greeted warmly by a group of people who were just leaving. One young man there was celebrating his birthday. We met a fellow there called Buster and the departing partiers loaded him down with food, water and a beer as they made farewells with hugs all around.

The girls were gone when we stopped with Buster by their fire to let Buster roll a smoke with our tobacco... We took a few puffs off our known ciggy then, as we had saved it after taking 2-3 puffs on it earlier…

There was one beer among the supplies that Buster had some trouble opening; we found a slot in one of the steel walls of the fire pit that served well as a bottle opener. This fire pit was shaped like a huge steel flower with ornamental slots cut in the petals in the shapes of stamen.

While we were smoking a woman came up, she had immigrated to the US 30 yrs ago from Slovakia. She was there with her daughter and her daughter's boyfriend that were off enjoying the darkness by the surf... As we chatted three of the four girls returned and we stood together making introductions and so forth... one of the gals was putting out some pretty dismal statements so we tried to counsel her a bit on improving her outlook; her friend with the birthday that night chimed in with us and the discussion turned to the importance of having a good attitude to teach children when raising kids...

The Slovakian woman's daughter and boyfriend arrived and then departed again. The girls took photos including a group photo of the birthday girl with us, the Slovakian woman and Buster hugging... We left Buster and the Slovakian woman at the fire after the three girls departed in order to explore the new fire that had been started up further south.

We passed two unused fire pits like big steel cauldrons along the way.

At the next fire we met up with the kidz from the stairs… We later learned that the kidz call each other kids regardless of age; these were all youths, perhaps late teens up to nearly 30. They were smoking and drinking and talking and tending large stones in their fire which they were heating for a sweat lodge they had erected a bit south of their fire.

Buster donated the proceeds from the fire farthest north to the group and laid out many bags of snacks, and a 2 gallon jerry of water. One of the fellows came around to where we had been standing with Buster to the NW of the fire as soon as left to take an interest in tending the fire.

This fellow Scott reached for our hand; he reached beyond our hand to clasp our wrist in a fashion we returned. We learned this was their culture’s greeting for equals and members of their culture called The Kidz.... there is a bit more to the group name referencing some author or band or such, but the short name for their entire culture appears to be Kidz.

Scott was the fellow who had earlier marched off in distress and he now wanted to share an epiphany with us. Scott had just had a spiritual awakening that evening and was finally free of his despair and suicidal feelings regarding his girlfriend who had been cut in half by a freight train as he watched helpless because it had happened so suddenly...

She had taught him to be a 'traveler' to hop freight trains to tour the world... She had every advantage a university graduate with a good job, apartment, the whole nine yards, the world was hers, she had it all according to Scott who was a homeless drifter kid. He had been riding the rails with his girlfriend for over a year before her accident. She had been climbing a ladder down between two cars while carrying her bag, Scott had already thrown his on bag off and leaped clear of the moving train...

But the train lurched harshly and she was thrown to the ground beneath the wheels...

We could see the depth of pain Scott was still carrying but we could see too that he was adjusting and he began to explain his epiphany and how he had finally heard his girlfriend telling him to carry on living even though he only wanted to die... Well from where we were looking at things Scott had done as we had done, and had killed himself that night in his grief only to learn that he could not die so easily and that he was wanted here and he agreed to return...

We had tried to interrupt his tale a couple of times to let him know that his girlfriend was here in spirit and would always be with him in spirit and that he could continue his relationship with her through spirit but he didn't have any beliefs that allowed him to understand that until his experience that night when he died. So he rejected the idea of her being there in spirit out of mental habit while going on to tell us about how he heard here speak to him tonight and how she had been with him and talking to him this whole past month since her death. What could we say? We were overjoyed to learn he had discovered enough of spirit to have this experience even though he was already beginning to rationalize the death experience he had that night and turn it into a story in his mind that fit what the knew of the 'facts' about death according to most western people's reality paradigms.

We explained some of what had happened to Scott and how he was awakening and that tonight was the most powerful night of his life when he was most capable of manifesting a new life for himself, a better life. He was clearly in some doubt still about deserving a better life and we tried to counsel him on self worth and intention.

We were interrupted by the young blond fellow who gave us a beer and wanted to talk some, and later we all sat together on the north northeast side of the fire smoking and drinking when new people arrived...

The new people were lead by a fellow named ??? who parried verbally with the kidz in a bit of cultural perspective and interface adjustments as some racist remarks were made but everyone agreed to like each other regardless of any prejudices or bigotries...
The new groups leader was respectful and asked permission to join and share and sat with us and Scott felt drawn to him and wanted to tell his story to him. This fellow was touched very deeply in his heart and reached out to hold Scott briefly, more than a hug... and the conversation drifted about around them while Scott unburdened himself with his new friend.

The kidz called the new guy a kid though he was probably close to forty and he knew he'd been accepted among them and was flattered and grateful. But his 4-5 friends were uncomfortable and were now begging to leave as they had jobs to go to in the morning. They could not leave without their friend as he was driving them all... But he had bonded with Scott and was torn and did not want to leave. We explained we were there for Scott and it would be ok and Scott asked for our tobacco and we passed it to him so he could roll smokes for his new friend and himself, he rolled one for someone else as well and we pulled out our own smoke which still had nearly half left as we are a very conservative smoker limited to 3 puffs once a week or less under ordinary circumstances.

The new fellow agreed to take his friends home after his smoke. when he got up to leave Scott accompanied them back to their car and sought us out to continue talking with us when he returned.

Scott's new friend had given him contact info and told him to look him up. He said he wanted to give Scott half a million dollars because he was so fabulously wealthy he had no use for the money and he wanted Scott to be able to makes something good in his life. We pointed out that this was indeed the most powerful night of his life and that the offer may very well be real and sincere and to give it all due consideration because he should be able to tell his new found benefactor how he wants to use the money he will receive.

We discussed Scott's reservations about accepting the money. Scott knew he could easily blow it all partying and giving it away to other kidz and he felt a responsibility to do something more than that with the money but was struggling with the guilt of not sharing it with all the kidz he would meet. We tried to explain that he would always have his gifts of compassion, love and nurture to share with the kidz and that he now had the opportunity to fulfill a dream or vision and to allow himself to find a goal and intend for it to manifest through this gift.

It came time for Scott to go and he was reluctant to leave us. He told us how grateful he was to meet us and how he felt he might not be worthy of meeting us and we explained our life was in service and we were drawn by spirit to be there for him but that we served many people online as well.

We tried to explain how we were really all equals, and that no one is more worthy than anyone else. We described our purpose in life as we see it is to enjoy life to its fullest and to do our best to manifest ourselves as the person we most dream of being… We said that we were all in this together, and that since we really are all equals our only way to improve our situation in life is by helping to improve everyone else’s situation too, so that we all rise up together.

We gave him our card with our blog and email address so that he might contact us when he gets settled. It might take awhile to hear from him as he may not have an email account to use. But if he really intends to contact us he will be able to go to any library, create an email account for free and then get in touch.

Scott was very grateful to receive our card and we hugged and parted...

We hung with the last two kidz left after the folks who had built the sweat lodge tore it down and went home. The one we had first met, Cody, had been telling very interesting stories all night though some bits might have seemed a bit scary, such as the part where he and his friends hunted and killed a man who may have been a vampire and who had demonstrated evidence of being over 200 yrs old...

Cody said this man had controlled an entire town through something that may have been a sort of malign spiritual domination so Cody and his friends probably decided that he was evil and deserved killing for that reason. They may have made a sort of sacrifice of this guy, as Cody described spreading his intestines throughout the branches of a tree in the form of a pentacle above his decapitated head...

Cody related some other strange accounts such as leveling a science building at his HS in an explosion caused when his teacher freaked out about him cooking there. He said spent seven years in jail for that one.... Seems a lot of the kidz may have been in for awhile for one reason or another... Cody said there was 7 million dollars waiting for him when he got out, a payment in thanks for creating an ice cream treat that was marketed very successfully by Dairy Queen.

Cody said he blew all the money partying and described some of the luxuries he enjoyed during that time... We liked his taste in women.

Cody and the blond fellow (damn, bit we sure wish we were better at names as we really liked this kid a lot) took off and we policed the site for rubbish and then we left too...

We no longer recall at what point Buster left but we liked him very much as well. Buster had an innate wisdom and presence of mind that seemed to make him another of our guides that night. We learned a bit from Buster and will try to remember those lessons. Buster spoke more about love than anything else that night and he was clearly a very loving man.

It was some time after 6 am when we got home...

Monday, August 27, 2007

Organic Ocean - Excerpt from illustrated story

This excerpt is from an incomplete illustrated story in which we try to describe some of our adventures in traveling to other worlds...

Friday, August 17, 2007

About Alchemy – Choose to Love

We have the capacity to choose to love in response to every circumstance in our lives. Choosing to love empowers us; the rewards we manifest by choosing to love are wonderful.

About Alchemy – Choose to Love

We often see people complain about being bored or complaining that someone else is boring.

We would like to recommend that if you are often bored with people that you make a special social studies project of people whom you think are boring. We haven't actually met any boring people so we very much doubt that any boring people really do exist.

Some people may seem tiresome, but that is not the same as being boring.

When we find someone appears to be tiresome or boring it is usually due to a disconnection... Their interests and our interests do not seem to match up very well...

Yet everyone has a story, events in their lives which are important to them, things which they feel very passionate about; when you tap into these things and take an interest in them you may typically find that person is really very interesting.

It's a choice we can make, whether to find someone boring or interesting. Learning how to make that choice can be very important to us because in the process of opening ourselves up to a wider range of experiences and stories from other people's lives we can learn much more about ourselves as well.

Every emotional and mental state we experience is something which we can choose to change or to maintain. Maintaining our familiar mental and emotional states may often seem the easiest ting to do, but we can become so over-invested in the belief systems and values which help us to maintain our mental and emotional states that we may become very inflexible and find it much harder to grow, to adapt, or to accept change.

Yet change is inevitable; persons who become rigid and have a diminished capacity to adapt to change often deprive themselves of many opportunities in life; they may cut themselves off from a wealth of experiences that they might have cherished had they allowed themselves to be open to change and to be vulnerable to love.

And perhaps one of the most wonderful things about our lives is that there is an abundance of spiritual wealth and enriching experiences all around us all of the time. It's up to us to see this abundance and to learn how to take advantage of it.

The more we learn to connect to other people the richer we may make our lives. Everyone has something to contribute to our lives that will make our lives more rewarding if we know how to open ourselves up to other people and enable ourselves to discover the wealth within other people that we will personally treasure.

Some of the experiences we have of other people may seem to hurt us, they may appear to be abusive people who deliberately seek to hurt us physically or emotionally, or they may appear to be callous people who casually hurt us without any deliberate intent to do so, who hurt us simply because they may lack the connection to us that makes them value us enough to pay attention to our presence and our needs and to show us compassion, respect or courtesy.

When people appear to be deliberately intent on harming us we usually find that they have been badly hurt themselves and that their only way to cope with their own pain is to make someone else feel worse than they feel. It is a very shallow approach to coping with their own pain and in the end it makes them more miserable even if they appear to enjoy causing us pain at the moment when they are indulging themselves at our expense.

Such wounded people will continue to go about hurting other people until they have found the means to heal themselves and discover the capacity within them to love themselves, as well as a capacity to love and appreciate other people; capacities which they may sometimes appear to be lacking when they allow their personal pain and inner torment to dominate their lives and drive their behavior.

To heal such a person requires patience, acceptance and love. We may not be the one who personally helps them to finally heal themselves but we can still contribute to their healing. The best reasons to contribute to their healing are two-fold, we will stop them from trying to hurt us anymore, and we may help prevent them from hurting other people as well.

Sometimes, to help prevent a malicious person from hurting other people, we may discover we have deliberately or unconsciously provoked such a wounded person to attack us because we aware that the person they may attack next may be weaker than we are, that the next person to become a target of such a person’s malice may suffer much more in response to the malice that this wounded person needs to indulge in than we ourselves may suffer.

When someone with a malicious nature attacks us the first thing to remember is that they are not really attacking who we are. They are attacking their own pain and anger which they are projecting into their perceptions of us. We become the target for what hurts them most within themselves that they cannot tolerate. Their attacks are never really about us; their attacks are really always directed against themselves.

They make it seem like their attacks are about us because they want to believe it is all about us because they are trying to escape from acknowledging how deeply they are hurt and how badly they feel about themselves.

Such people are very skillful at pushing other people's buttons. They instinctively know the weaknesses in other people that will enable them to dominate the other person and abuse them. So they will seem to be making a very personal attack but when they attack anyone, it is never really about the person who appears to be being attacked, it is still all about them and their needs which they do not know how to meet, and the suffering and pain they are causing themselves as a consequence of being unable to meet their needs or even to acknowledge that they may have such needs.

When we can address the deep seated needs which are genuinely driving such a person's behavior we place ourselves in control of the situation and we may then be able to deflect their hostility and awaken their love and happiness and joy in order to give them a moment of sweet respite from being the monster they have made of themselves. They may react with fear to this sort of experience at first because it is unfamiliar and threatens to undermine their coping mechanisms based on hostility because their hostility becomes inappropriate when they are awakened to their capacity to love and feel compassion for themselves and others.

Their initial fear can re-ignite their hostility because their hostility is a defense mechanism to protect them from being hurt. When they love they become vulnerable and being vulnerable is often intolerable to such a person. But with patience and love such a person's defense mechanisms may be worn down little by little to be replaced with an increasing capacity to respond to circumstances in their lives with love and compassion.

Usually one person will not be there with them the entire way to guide them through this sort of transformation. It generally takes many, many people each contributing a little bit toward successfully helping someone like this to heal. This is because what needs to be healed most in such people is their trust of people in general. Specific people may have hurt them, but they often lack the capacity to distinguish the difference between those people who may have hurt them and other people who may or may not hurt them. So they choose to perceive everyone as a potential threat and then choose to respond with hostility in order to protect themselves.

Only when many, many people have all shown such a person true love, compassion, respect and kindness they will slowly heal so that they may learn to trust and to love. Such a person may often then experience a great deal of anguish as they heal because they may come to hate themselves for all the pain they believe they may have caused other people to feel. The pain of their self hatred can re-ignite their anger and their frustration with themselves and may cause them to return to their old ways of acting with hostility toward everyone around them.

But at this stage their healing is actually well under way and those special people who are able to show such a person mercy, tenderness, love and compassion will continue to lead those wounded people back to the source of their pain and may reawaken their capacity to love and nurture themselves and to learn to love and nurture the people around them. Eventually such wounded people may be able to heal themselves to a level where they may be able to promote the same sort of healing in other people too.

Even our worst enemies, the people who have hurt us the most, are opportunities for us to develop our compassion, tolerance and love. The rewards of discovering a capacity within ourselves to love and heal hostile, wounded people are immense because when we have made our contributions to heal such people we are helping to protect others from harm as well as learning to keep ourselves safe from the sort of harm we may otherwise allow such a person to do to us.

The fact that we actually do allow other people to harm us is the other half of this amazing spiritual equation... We really do choose to allow other people to hurt us. We invite them to do so. We are never random victims. Whenever we manifest an experience of feeling harmed we have an inner need that has driven us to find that experience and manifest it in our lives.

Ultimately we are in total control of our lives at all times. Learning to take conscious, willful control of our destinies is part of the art of alchemy and it begins with loving in response to every experience in our lives. It continues by accepting our responsibility for creating our circumstances, and it comes to fruition when we have empowered ourselves to consciously choose what we will manifest in our lives once we have worked through all of our own inner pain and conflicts and no longer possess any hidden motivations to punish ourselves with deprivation or abuse.

That is how alchemy works… Alchemy is driven by our spirit, it is powered by our love, it is shaped by our will, and it manifests in our lives as abundance and joy.

It is always our choice to love in response to everything we experience... So choose to love and to love always!


Hello Reader,
We are collectively known by the name of Greg Gourdian for the purposes of publishing our articles. We are a group of people spanning many worlds and universes; we cohabitate many bodies, however we have only one body ere in this world we share with you.
We worked with the general public as a psychic reader for a little over four years from 1981 to 1986. While much of our written work has been channeled we may often admit that we have no idea who many of the voices of our channeled work may be.
We have many strange tales to tell regarding our spiritual journeys and we try to tell our tales in a humorous or entertaining manner.
While we were a high-school student without teaching credentials we taught high-school classes in metaphysics & parapsychology, psychology, and sociology.
We are still emerging from the closet in regard to being a system of many people inhabiting what appears to be a single body in the context of the world we seem to share with you. Our current written works reflect this new change in perspective as we have adopted the plural personal pronoun to help us to develop a greater awareness and understanding of ourselves.
We hope you will understand if we sometimes may sound awkward or conceited as a consequence of making this verbal adjustment in how we refer to ourselves.
Our group's primary beliefs share these ideals:
That love should be universal and unconditional.
That liberty is a gift like love which may be enjoyed better by giving it to everyone.
That justice may best be served by not judging.